Last Night

Last night I had one of the worst and most uncomfortable night of my life.... I could not sleep a wink due to still neck.. It got worse with the passage of time at night... I wish I could ask my husband to massage my neck and shoulders, only for few minutes, but did not feel the courage to do so. I feel that he is getting uncomfortable and impatient with my little sicknesses which keeps on manifesting since we got married... He married a perfectly healthy person and all of a sudden this person gets sick all the time and it is annoying for him... I know, he is best I could have gotten as a husband but he cannot love me like a child is loved by a parent... His love is limited, conditional and based on selfish desires.